today is monday. like all mondays, they tend to be rather senile. do u remember what you did on a Monday? what you had for lunch? what you discussed about? how was the weather that day, did u meet anyone special?

today's monday was like any other, i did my work conscientiously. just as i was about to move onto another item, i seemed to have been looking at myself and asking, why am i doing this? then it all became clear, i was only willing to do what i'm doing for a chance to do something else in the future.

and it's a relief. i dun feel that sort of pressure anymore. i'll just do my job, and get there one day. in the meanwhile, have fun, travel, laugh, and relax... "if you try hard enough, you'll get whatever you want. obstacles are there to show how hard you want it."

but what if you dun really want it badly, and u know that as long you get some, it's enough. i call it progressive contentment. you work ur way towards ur goals, but always knowing that what you have is much better than many others, and it's ok to hit a setback now and then... pull up ur socks, move on, and be happy that you still possess the ability to try.